Coming to terms with being a nerd
I know many people who love adventures. The kind of people who get their kicks from jumping off bridges with a bungee rope attached to their ankles, scuba diving in coral reefs, hang gliding over canyons, that kind of thing. People find adventurers interesting and admirable. I used to feel that I ought to try to be adventurous too. It was something that I aspired to. If only I had the money, I could be like them too…
I went up in a glider once. I tried to force myself into a state of awe at being up in the air with no engine. It didn’t work. The bang I got on the elbows when we landed cancelled out any positive feelings I had about the experience. I pretended that I had enjoyed it but I wouldn’t bother to do it again. At the time, I blamed my lack of enthusiasm on the fact that it didn’t really feel like I was flying. I couldn’t feel the wind in my face so it was hardly better than watching a video. I convinced myself that hang gliding would be much more fun. However, now that I’m older and know myself better, I’ve realised that any good feelings I might get from hang gliding would be more than cancelled out by the anxiety of the preparatory stage and the fear involved in launching myself and controlling the flight and so on. I’m the opposite of an adrenaline junkie.
I get excited by folding paper. My favourite way to relax is to watch an episode of almost any of the Sci-Fi/Fantasy series known to man or to read a Sci-Fi/Fantasy book. I have a degree in Physics and a Masters in Medical Physics. I was employed as a computer programmer for 8 years. Heavy engineering makes me smile like a loon, even though I have two X chromosomes (as far as I know). However, up until recently, I have been in denial about my nerd status. Thanks to origami though, I have come to embrace my nerdiness. I love spending hours repetitively folding little pieces of paper so that I can build something of no practical use whatsoever. I don’t really know why I enjoy these things, but I’m finally letting go of my resistance and going with the flow. I’m following my bliss, even though adventurers might find it a little odd.